I'm really sorry to see you struggle like this, Kris I know it's been a while since we last chatted. All I can say right now is you need to take baby steps...trying to do too much at once will just overwhelm you. I would stick with Insanity and losing the weight you want because it is YOUR goal, not anyone else's. Please don't lose the weight because you think it will help you get a girlfriend, because you will just be unhappy in the end. Lose the weight as a starting goal for your own reasons and to have your own sense of accomplishment.