Dear Twigs92,
You will benefit by going to see doctor, getting on meds, staying on your meds, and treating yourself with firm but gentle care. If you don't take care of yourself you won't be able to achieve your goals.

Make the appointment! Give yourself a chance! Things will work out. Give yourself that chance. You can cope and function better on meds which help you balance. It gets better. You're going to be ok. Go to the appointment.

Gentle push, big hug. You can do it.