Honey, I have SO been there! I know how you feel I promise! It's the depression talking & feeling for you. A new day WILL COME where you will find a new hope, new strength, and a new purpose! Please just give it time to pass and in the meantime, find some help, get your meds or talk to your Dr., whatever it takes to get you through this! And remember that we care about you! God gives his hardest battles to His strongest soldiers! I like this saying because it makes me feel like the "average" person couldn't last one day dealing with what people like us have to go through! We are on the front line every day and every time we get back up is a victory. The fact that you're still here with us at PC shows that you still have some fight left in you. I hope you will find the strength to keep going! Lean on us as much as you need to.