Knowing what you want and creating own goals, visualising things for self, making own efforts to challenge self, not following what others want you to do/how to be is important. I don't want to live other people's lives. I want to be the master of my own life and not be bullied, controlled by others.
I'm not the only one who has difficulty concentrating when have high anxiety and severe depression. I have talked to others who have problem reading when depressive. When i was at University, I had to retake several assessments and have extra time in exams etc.. because i had trouble concentrating. It took me longer to complete stuff than others. It was difficult doing coursework on time cos it involved reading books. I ha to submit extenuating circumstances. Writing is easier to do than reading. Writing is a way of expressing oneself, putting thoughts and feelings down that are hard to store in head.