thanks for the replies...

I know I am emotionally illiterate...personally dysfunctional...

but I have to keep challenging myself!... and not because pain beat me to it!

I am a permanent pain and an even more pain in the ***!...

a few hundred years ago you were lucky or unlucky to hear news from a village 8 miles perhaps 9 miles from you bed...

and the effect was equally desperate upon the discovery...

because it was likely a family member that came to grief!

these modern times proclaim social media a gift from the Gods!...

and I consider it an over excited and destructive situation of personal opinion...

just like mine here is!

but ...despite my abhorrence of this human self absorption!

sometimes humanity can unite and put aside opinions and personal self absorption...

and consider the things of more importance...

I ashamed because people are killed everyday...

when I delegate my compassion here and there?

what right do I have to decide who matters?

and this most recent tragedy has challenged me ...!

...

that it is not about me...

and for all the tragedy around me?

all I seem to do is to try and forget...

this is what I meant by shameful...

it always seems to be other kids mums and dads and families that get hurt so bad...

I somehow owe these people and these strangers something!!

it could quite easily be me in these terrible conflicts and awful accidents...

and those victims of such danger ...mostly are not aware that they could die any time soon...