Looking for any advice or help. I quit drinking, drugging. My delusions havn't got that much better, I still have problems and it drives my wife absolutely insane. She gets so upset with me if I bring up a delusion that I'm having. In the past she has said please tell me when your feeling paranoid but all she does is say "stop thinking that way." Like shes blaming me for having delusions like its my fault. Like I can just make a decision to think them away.

I don't know what to do about it. Usually I realize when I'm having an incorrect thought. This morning at the scrapyard the woman writing the check to me post dated it for 3 days from now. I found out at the bank and got suspicious that she did it on purpose cause the scrapyard was broke or something. I kept trying to tell myself it could just be an honest mistake but I couldn't shake the thought that she had tried it.

When I brought it up to my wife she got frustrated and eventually angry that I just can't think properly.

The only solution I can think of is to just try to never bring up what I think is a delusion. I don't know what else to do.