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Originally Posted by SideBlinded
I am so confused right now. One pdoc diagnosed ADHD without doing any tests. I gave her my history. One psychologist diagnosed BPD AND said I did NOT have ADD because she did do some testing. I gave her hardly any history.
I may not have ADHD and I may not have BPD. I was abused as a child and I am very hypervigilant. I use soothing behavior like rocking myself to sleep and rock all day in a rocking chair (habit) and maybe I am just traumatized from childhood. Then I went into medicine where there was chaos, trauma and lots of death. I had a nervous breakdown after 15 years of it. I was an RT who covered the ICU and ER. I was part of the code team. (airway management) and I saw a lot of trauma. That didn't help me to calm down from my abusive childhood at all. Now I am hyperaroused and startle easily and am restless most of the time. I don't know what all this fits into, really.  |
If I were you, I would start with a licensed mental health counselor LMHC and don't share your prior diagnosis, but DO share what you are sharing in this post regarding the childhood abuse, professional trauma, and your soothing behaviors. It will take more than one session to properly assess you, and then the two of you can decide if medications would be helpful, and the therapist can recommend a good psychiatrist. I have always had a LMHC working in conjunction with my psychiatrist which is why I am making progress. I still have bad days, and maybe I always will, but I also have the comfort of being just a phone call away from a professional who can help any time of the day or night.
I hope this helps.
WW