sniff- I struggle with it everyday- especially when I swallow my handful of pills every morning and every night- I'm still symptomatic but I call it bi-polar light. I can handle to up and down. You are so young and I can only imagine how hard it would be to accept that you have a life-time dx. However, you have a chance to learn how to cope early on. I think that is a real blessing. The dx is only a small part of who you are- it doesn't have have to rule your life, but you can't ignore it either.