I was just trying to fall asleep, but something occured to me and I wanted to get it down. The vast majority of the time, the only person I feel anger with is myself.

That doesn't strike me as healthy. But when I would normally feel anger towards someone, which doesn't happen too often, it usually gets channeled into depression without me even recognizing it.

I don't think I experience anger like most people seem to. I tend to be fine until, very rarely, I'm so angry I'm shaking with rage and crying, which then just turns into feeling helpless about the situation making me angry and then feeling angry at myself for not being able to assert myself better.

Becca