I'm not sure if I've ever been manic. Doctors say yes but I don't know. Seems like the line comes when I start thinking I have magic powers and can heal people with my presence and words, but when I try to write healing essays I can't piece to tether anything that makes sense because my mind is racing so much. That's what the doctor says is mania.

Psychosis comes in the form of me believing that someone/thing is implanting thoughts in my brain. That is the most common one for me. The thoughts usually tell me to harm myself. Sometimes I hallucinate but that is rare. I have also had delusions where I believe someone is trying to gt me to kill myself but I don't know who so everyone is a danger. I thought everyone could read my mind. I thought that some people were replaced by robots. And I thought my husband was controlling me through medication.

It is not fun.