Where to start...
I am new to this, I am 40 years old and was diagnosed just 2 years ago; initially with bipolar disorder and later with schizoaffective disorder. It has only been in the last 9 months or so that we have found the right mix/dosage of meds to keep me stable (stable is a relative term, mind you).

So here is what I am dealing with.
Without going into specifics about my delusions and hallucinations... before I came to terms with being ill, I had knew exactly who I was and had a distinct purpose in life. I knew my destiny and I was comfortable with it.
Now, I don't know who I am. All that I was, the way I lived my life, it was all based on a delusion. Even some relationships, those connections were based on the same delusion.

So now here I am! Nothing. No idea who I am or where to start. I have 2 kids at home, and I live for them but I feel... I don't know... lost. The delusion makes more sense than real life.

Any feedback is welcome!