I get that too but unfortunately I can also act out my anger. I think I;m getting better at handling the anger now. T says I still am not feeling the original rage at my mothers, she doesn't mean me to go shouting and acting out in the hear and now but she means really experiencing the true rage. But it seems just as I think I'm about too, it stops and its like my memory gets wiped in that instant. Not sure if that makes sense. In fact I don't think it does LOL!