in my late 20's I was dx as bipolar but blew it off,, many years of very happy outgoing life till in my middle 50's I broke and crashed winding up in lockdown. dx again and I still have a hard time believing it,, today my life is mild depression and pills, I can laugh but it is few and far between, I think I have accepted my dx too much, as I feel my life is over and has no meaning except to take those damn pills.. I have lost all my dreams and desires.....just waiting to die.