I don't know what's going on, but recently (particularly at work, and I work as a waitress), I haven't been able to organise my thoughts well and think about what I'm doing/been missing random bits off orders even if I write them down. I was really scared and severely anxious a few weeks back incase I was going to get fired as I read all the 'signs' that my bosses were pissed off with me etc. That ended with me crying down the phone to my parents, then hiding in my bed. I calmed down after that, and was okay for a few days.

But now the last few shifts I just can't focus again, if I get stressed by one thing I lose the plot, I can't kick my brain into gear. This is just a job I'm doing over summer until uni starts again (but I need the money). Yesterday was bad because I asked them outright if I was going to be fired, and they said no, but I don't trust them. I just can't get my brain to kick into gear, I missed my pdoc appointment last month as I thought I wasn't ill, and I forget to phone the psychaitric nurses to tell them I could attend that. I was supposed to start meds but I didn't want to, so I didn't, and I have no idea what's going on with that, I thought if I didn't show up it would be okay because I wouldn't have to be ill anymore and I could just try and get on with it like I always do. Now I'm just scared I'll get fired because I feel f--king incompetant all the time, and probably am.

Sorry for the post, just has anyone else had this? (also m diagnosis is BP2 but I get psychosis with that).