It may be good for you to be in a safe place. It may not be the environment you wished for. Things may not be perfect. It sure sounds like the staff could be a lot nicer. But at least you are safe. I know what you mean about medication problems. I have been on so many different anti-depressants and either they don't work or they have unwelcome side effects. My pdoc prescribed an anti-anxiety med that seems to do the opposite of what it is supposed to do. Best of wishes to you.