I have never worn the rose coloured spec's that friends have with regards to the sacrifice that is required and have always considered myself to selfish for motherhood. ( getting up and down in the night, putting their needs and well being first even if you feel like death warmed up) But am I just so cynical I don't look past the negative ?

I feel warm and fuzzy when I hold a baby and I do enjoy spending time with other people's kids but I just don't know if my less than certain resolve is mother nature's way of ensuring I do what my body is engineered for !