Dulcinea,
Don't worry about the slip--I wish I had a dollar for everytime I slipped. Towardrs the end of my drinking and using, it seemed like the pot and alcohol did not "work" as well--the high just was not as good--I wonder if it s a mental thing or what? I'd quit for a few days, get myself all worked up and then finally give in and drink only to be let down--the buzz just was not as magical as I remembered it. When I quit, I dropped 30 lbs (over several months), my paranoia got better, my meds worked better, my memory improved, my lungs felt better, I saved money, my concentration was better, easier to get out of bed in the morning because my sleep was better, my moods became more predictable, my anxiety decreased....I became more motivated to do other things--like clean the house, read, paint, cook, talk with friends, write, garden and yard work...--all the things I had quit doing because I was busy getting high or drinking. Maybe you could make a list of things you could do instead of getting high. When I quit, I bought a few books and some silly craft projects--that helped keep me busy and a little distracted. And, now, I have plenty of hot pads, friendship bracelets and I'm sober. Just a thought...I hope you have a good day.