I guess I'm just really stupid or something. I've been purgng for about two years now. I used to attend a residential school for people with my disability and stayed in a dorm most of the time. Now, I'm home for summer and am switching to a public high school. I have been purging at home in the only available bathroom. I knew my parents knew I had been sick a couple times, but I just told them it was the heat or that I just didn't feel good. Now, they are acting like they know I've done it a lot. Not that I've purged. Just that I've been throwing up a lot. I'm afraid they are going to start asking questions if they know as much as they think they do. I'm not going to give up my mia. it's mine. But I also don't know what to do if they start asking questions. I know I sound like a dumb teenager, but this is all I have. Plus, I have disappointed them once when they found out about the self harm. I don't want to hurt them any further. I also can't give this up though.
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