As the saying goes, the first thing to do when you're in a hole is stop digging.

Is there really no other place you can stay? A friend's house, another relative maybe? I have the feeling that your moving out may very well be the only way to wake your parents up, even though you say they've been trying to get rid of you for awhile now. When conditions have gotten so bad that even their enabler (you) can't stand to be around them anymore, it might send a message.

Or, it might not, but in the meantime you're not there to clean up after them. You CAN. NOT. SAVE. THEM. It's not your job to be their keeper. You need to get out and live your own life. No amount of caring and love that you give them will make them change. Maybe nothing will. That's not your call. Your choices are limited to these: either get out of their house and let them drink themselves to death, or stay and watch them drink themselves to death.

I know. My parents were a little more classy (or so they believed), but they drank like fish themselves and were more or less pleasantly stewed all of the time. They drove drunk, they got into loud arguments, they could be mean and nasty. Yet they judged me because I was your basic falling-down drunk, not an upper-middle-class lush like them. I went to the local town watering hole to do my drinking, while they went to the city to do theirs "so no one would know". Ha. The whole town knew, and the one they felt sorry for was me.

Fast-forward to now: I am 22 years sober and 10 months abstinent (I had a 'slip' last fall, but instead of drinking I used pills). My parents are long dead; although alcoholism wasn't on the death certificates, it should have been. One of the main reasons I think I've been able to stay sober all these years is because I got away from the original problem drinkers in my life. Only then was I able to shake their twisted ways of thinking and figure out how to live without booze.

So please, do whatever it takes to get out of your environment and stop trying to save your parents. You cannot do it. I wish you the very best.....you are going to need it. Be strong. Be well.