Hello my friends!
I am a 29 year old female with Bipolar,my pdoc never told me if i'm bipolar I or II so I don't know,but she told me that my condition is not too serious.I am on Tegretol CR 400 for almost 2 years now.I was able to finish university in 10 years because of my drinking and partying but I quit drinking last year and my life has been so much healthier since..(I can't say that I am happier tho)I have a boyfriend who is the nicest guy ever but I am driving him crazy ,I always want more and want my realationship to be perfect so I get angry and upset when I don't get what I want.My pdoc once told me that I have a narcissistic personality.By the way I am soo jealous of him that I am thinking about leaving him to find peace because it hurts too much.I am always in peace and happy when I am single.Whenever I am with someone and i fall in love,i totally become someone else,i become jealous and unhappy and lose all interest in life ..When it comes to my mood changes,i am almost stable for more than 1 year but I still get upset all of a sudden and than it goes away the same day.It's like my brain is trying to make me sad all the time and I believe it..But then all of a sudden the sound disappears.(Sometimes it stays )
And I am always tired,i am not depressed but my body is always tired and my brain is always working.(not the way it should be tho)

I just want to be in peace for a while..