The more I think about it, the more I just want to quit. I want to call the place and cancel all my appointments. But then again I feel really unstable and think I need therapy.

Maybe CBT in particular just isn't working for me. I can recite all the positive crap while staring at myself in the mirror all day; it doesn't make me FEEL any different. Like, logically I know that I'm not stupid and worthless and hopeless, but logic doesn't stop me from FEELING that way. Maybe my beliefs are mistaken but they're still my beliefs, and they're ones I've had for decades. And six months of therapy is supposed to magically cure me of all that? Riiiiiight.

I feel like I'm falling apart