Hi its been a few days since I've posted, I feel left behind in this world. I saw my therapist thursday, he really has no treatment for me, its so strange.

My psyciatrist recommended him saying he was the "best" in the area, well I saw herr on tuesday of this week, she asked whats he trying with you treatment wise, I said after thinking "nothing", and thats true he hasnt recommended anything....its as if he knows nothing to help me.......................

Well as I said I saw him thursday and basicly said he wasnt helping, and that im giving up on professional help itis ridiclous for me, its nothing, its a 45min session of ******** to me, they dont give me anything to improve on other then in the session itself, when i leave its the same again.

Lately I noticed that being "nice" wasnt cutting it in my life, im so lovable, caring, and all things good that I want to turn evil....so lately I've been acting on it........and still I don't fit in with the society.......and no no its not the teenage society, its the adult. Adults dont even understand me........

What do I do? I'm living a lie ........of fear, of hope that wont be helped........