moonkin, if you have closed your mind to the possibility of receiving help........then nothing is going to happen for you. but, if you can re-arrange some of your thought processes and try to open your heart to what people are doing with you, i think you'll find your way out of this.

it's hard. we've all been there and i have had to work my butt off and admit mistakes and suck it up......i'd love for my life to be uncomplicated and easy....but it ain't happening. so, i work on what i can change within myself and try to move forward......

love, pat