Hi all -
I'm going to send my T an email and ask if we can talk about this at our next session, but I wanted some feedback from others as well.

A few weeks ago, I introduced some very difficult topics in to therapy. Then, I had some drama happen with my job, and the last two sessions have been on that. I know that by the next session, my work drama should be mostly resolved, so I want to get back to the deeper work that we've been doing, rather than just trying to manage my anxiety as we've been doing for the last two sessions.

I've been with my T for almost 5 years now. I've brought up a LOT of things with her. Stuff I've never shared with anyone else. We've worked on lots of things together. I've managed to identify most of my poor coping mechanisms, and I'm aware of them and usually able to choose some other method of coping when needed. The things that brought me to therapy originally are finally well controlled. Basically - the "symptoms" are either under control or I'm fully aware of them and working on them. I feel like there's more I need to do, though. There are the topics that I introduced a few sessions ago. There's the deeper, core beliefs that are still kinda messed up. I feel like it's finally time to really work on the deep issues and how to move forward.

Every time I go to session, I have lots of ideas of how I want to tackle things, but then I freeze up. I tell my T that I don't know what I want to talk about. That's not really true, it's more that I don't know how to move from where I am to where I want to be. I don't know which topic to tackle first. I don't know how to bring stuff up or what I need to talk about once I do bring it up. I went through something similar about 2 years ago, but then, I couldn't move forward until I was able to focus on something other than anxiety. Getting on meds helped me to lower my anxiety levels to the point that it wasn't so all consuming. Then, I was able to start working on other things. At that time, we went to every other week sessions, as I just didn't have anything new to talk about. I've thought about doing so again, but my problem this time isn't that I don't have anything to talk about, it's that I don't know what's important anymore. I have so many things to talk about now that I get kinda stuck.

Can anyone relate. Has anyone else felt like you've hit a plateau where your symptoms are under control, but you know you need to get in to the deeper issues more, and just can't seem to make that jump from one to the other?