I appreciate the responses. I've had to let my entire family go, except the eldest. I am I in the process now and it is beyond painful letting go of the fantasy they will improve....never going to happen. They thrive on revenge and create their own misery and now it is trickling down to their children; leave me out of it. Admiting my brother is a sociopath was really crushing. There was no denying the devastation he caused and he is dangerous. The sociopath really is an empty shell. I've also discovered many others in the family have sociopathic tendencies. Lucky me! The book "The Sociopath Next Door" was a good, short read.

PeeJay, discovering the outdoors via walking and hiking has been amazingly beneficial for my soul. It is so theraputic/meditative soaking up nature letting it permeate my body. I find it regulates my mind, which is more than my family or "friends" ever did.
I wish every one goodwill in their healing journey. I am beginning to believe in the law of attraction. I just need to find a new playground. "You Can If You Think You Can" (Norman Vincent Peale).

iheart, "Be Gentle" is meant to convey to be gentle to you and those we cross paths with. There's too much agression in the world today and I just really like the word "gentle". Take care