My ex won a custody battle of my children a few years ago and as i have severe phobia of leaving the flat or being aound people and was very depressed but now out of the blue he has given me one of my children back and said he cant cope with her. Im so confused and ive been so used to hiding in my flat now im really struggling to get everything right and my own mum is really getting on my nerves expecting me to cope with going to concerts and busy places and expecting me to do it with out crying or having a panic attack and she wont allow me to take my medication out in public with her as my eyes look spaced out and shes embarrassed to be with me. She is expecting me to snap out of it and be normal but i just feel like screaming at my mum. I know shes critisising me and judging my every move. I want to tell her to f off. Im so stressed. And im trying to go out and do things with her but in places that are not too crouded as it is too much of a giant leap for me to make. Why wont she let me take smaller steps.