first of all, thanks for your replies.

Rebel 999, yeah, my mom and your mom sound a lot alike.
She pisses me off too, and I can't stand her half the time.. no wait. MOST of the time.. We are always arguing and she goes off on me about pretty much nothing.
The other day, she was in my room running on my treadmill, I wanted to go to sleep cuz i had just gotten home from work. she told me to just go to bed, but I couldn't because it stank in there.. lol so I told her that, just like she always tells me that i stink when i work out.. She got SOO mad that i swear I thought she was going to punch me or something. She totally overreacted about something that didnt even matter that much.. She ALWAYS does this.
I'm sorry you see your mom all day.. so do I.. she only works 4 hrs per day, she isn't able to work anymore than that.. So now that Im not in school anymore and I work so little, I spend waaay too much time with her.. it sucks.

It isn't that she doesn't want to see a doctor/help, but she doesn't want to take medication.. she already takes tons of other drugs (for cancer, diabetes,etcc) and her liver/body can't handle anthing more.
She used to see a doctor, who didn't offer much help, and i think she just doesn't think it'll help her.

I feel bad now, saying that I blame my mom for my problems.. i really didn't mean that, i was just having the worst day ever.
She does cause me a lot of stress and anger.. and we don't get along. I know it's not her fault that I feel like this, but she certainly doesn't help my situation.

I am going to start therapy in may (4th, i think).. im so glad because i dont know what else to do about this.
im not going there for depression but i guess for anxiety. I went to the doctor for chest pain and other things and she said it sounded like I had anxiety attacks..
so i dont know if the doctor is going to be focused on only that..

Juliana, Im glad you could talk to your dad.. but i don't think that I would be able to.He is not very open with feelings, he wasn't brought up to show love, which is really sad.. he isn't like that with me but it took him almost my whole life to finally be able to say "i love you" to me, directly.

I feel really alone sometimes because i really dont have anyone to talk to. My "best friend" is very unsupportive and all she cares about is herself.. i dont confide in her anyway..

well, i think that's long enough..lol

thanxxx a bunch