Hey, BeaFlower. I have OCD as well and my parents and best friend knows it. It just came out. I probably have Borderline Personality Disorder and I'm worried that I may be bipolar too. I have a similiar problem to yours. I often have these thoughts, mailny when I go to sleep. They are about the devil, accidents that may happen to my close ones It's not easy to get rid of them, but I just say they are not real, that it's not me speaking, so in time they are quieting down Maybe you should try it