I'm so sorry for everything that you are going through! And leaving a vm for T and not hearing back when things are so tough is definitely upsetting. Technology is not always dependable though-it could be that she just didn't get the message. I once texted my T about something important and never heard back. I spent the entire weekend + several days feeling alternately livid and incredibly hurt. Come session, it turns out that for some reason, the text never went through. She even showed me her phone (with the texts between her and I). I'd call again.