I understand what you say, I use more or less the same 'method' and it does something...also if these thoughts are however annoying. So your parents noticed it alone, right? Recently or when you were a child, if I can ask? I wish that mine had noticed it and found a therapist for me some time ago, maybe it would have been easier...but I understand that it can be difficult for someone else to notice it. The positive thing is that maybe if I talk to a doctor now I'm more ready.
Thank you so much for answering me Myself98