Hi, Jelli, and welcome!

It does sound like you are pretty anxious and stressed, calling your therapist two evenings in a row instead of waiting for the next session. I think talk therapy works best session-to-session and sometimes there is just too much going on and medication can help with that aspect until we can get our bearings. However, it is not a mandate, just a suggestion and some therapists might make it more of a mandate to work with them because the "regular" work of therapy cannot take place is we are too anxious and stressed and the therapist does not have the ability to spend that much time and "effort" in non-talk therapy when that is their core service.

Have you been to your regular primary care physician and gotten a physical lately, made sure your hormones and vitamin use and your physical body is in top shape, etc.? The physical can influence the mental just like the mental can influence the physical and it could be that a more familiar situation like your regular doctor (if you have one) could help make the new situation of therapy easier for you.

It sounds like your therapist said "discuss" medicine, and that is an operative word. Keep reminding yourself that you are only talking, not "doing" right this moment and try to give yourself space to talk and listen both. Go on a fact-finding mission :-) and ask questions of your therapist, what you might expect from taking medicine and think about what you want in terms of how you want to relate to your therapist and yourself/life situation. If you are feeling stressed all the time and having trouble dealing with that within yourself, I would see if medicine might be helpful or I would think up a plan with how to better deal with yourself, see if you can improve nutrition, exercise, sleep, etc. and how that might affect you.