I'm in the boat with you Becca. I rarely feel rage and my T wants me to experience anger more often because I usually go to depression instead. But I feel like anger is wrong and I can't be angry with anyone else so instead I get angry with myself and turn all that inwards. I used to be the last straw type where I'd explode suddenly - though it's only happened maybe 3 times in my life. It makes me feel sick. So I guess depression is more comfortable. I'm working towards finding the middle too.