I've felt myself at least getting hypo for the last week or so. It's not fun anymore. I was basking in the euphoria of it for a while, then things just got typical.

What I mean by that is now I just feel restless and I'm getting grouchy. I feel like I want to crawl out of my skin. I have tons of energy, but I have absolutely no focus, so nothing is getting done. I want to write, something I actually enjoy about being hypo, but I can't seem to get the words to work together right.

I really want to just hit something, to be honest. Something to get out this pent up energy. Too hot for a walk today, in my opinion anyway. I don't like being outside when it's this hot and humid.

I don't really want to bring this up to my pdoc, I'm already soloing on two AP's, so I don't know what else she could really add to get this to go away. I refused to be a drugged up zombie.

I've even just about had it with my T. If I told her about this, she would just tell me to be mindful. I've had it up to here with mindfulness.

I don't even know what I'm looking for by posting this. I guess I just need to vent and get it off my chest. Maybe I'll go scrub some holes in my dishes for a while. At least it will be something to do.