I typically have heard of this one, for neuropathic pain with MSers that I've acquainted with, online. And also, from irl, someone recovering from back surgery. She asked for something different, felt spaced out. I'm barely familiar with its anxiety uses, yet, cannot blame you for not choosing this med.

Escaping through meds, is a means to not cope with strong emotions.

Are you considering the therapy route, upon emancipation from your parents?