can I write only one thing? -okay then it is that walk I took and everything during that:

somebody contacted me because of work things and I had to send some documents. that required I go to town. so I decided to take a long walk there.
the weather was really warm with strong wind and not too sunny and I like that. people on the street were all lazy and it was quiet and everybody moved almost as slowly as I do and I felt very normal.
also I wasn't afraid to look at people today and they looked back which hasn't happened for a while. they recognized me as another human being.
I think I lost some weight because I had a feeling that I was losing my pants all the time. took another street as usual and discovered a nice new bookstore. was listening to music while walking and when I got into the store they played the same music.
a friend also texted me while I was there. one I don't know so well but who has always been nice and we are going to meet tomorrow.