I still haven't gone down the hospital admission route and apologise if I haven't replied in the last month or so been rather busy with stuff. Oh crap what the hell am I gonna do, Essex cares the company that provides my employment advisors are considering closing my case. Because apparently I keep changing my mind whether I want to look for more work or not and they rather confusing me.

Then mental health team wanna close down my case either due to end of the two/three year or just close down cpn. But right now things are changing rapidly as my PTSD is getting worse, I am getting more frustrated/depressed and stressed and I have gone off my meds as they were making me lose all emotions (all good emotions and felt rather flat and nothing on them)

I am also in a extremely anxious state waiting to see if a Uni would accept me or if I am doing OU

I feel like everyone is leaving me an to make matters worse my bf and best friend graham are having regular arguments due to mental health. Someone get me out of ****hole

But I have filled in the therapy for you form and I am waiting to hear from them shortly when it's posted. But I cannot wait another eight to ten weeks or 18 months for therapist to come I just can't. So I will look elsewhere if that happens.


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