Busy day, trying to mend fences and I saw my pdoc today. With last weeks mania, which she said was full blown mania and the depression setting in I begged her to just keep me sedated. Not my philosophy but I'm just so scared about last week and the depression this week, I guess I'm panicking. I surrendered to her. I'm letting her call the shots with the meds whether I like it or not. Both my anti-psychotics have been increased and she's monitoring me closely, she's wondering about BP1.

I have meds to sleep tonight so it's going to be a very early bedtime. I have to be supper supper vigilant in taking care of myself.

Better days ahead, I hope.