I am "moderatored" so what that means is I have to stop interacting as soon I begin to feel or have a "need" of my own. If I am asked "how are you", never answer with anything other than fine and respond with "how are you and the other person will talk and talk and talk all about their needs, feelings, challenges and if I want the conversation to end, talk about "my" needs or challenges or feelings.

The one place that I "can" talk and feel is with my T.

You are not alone with feeling alone.