This is how I feel as well my feeling of hate doesn't seem exaggerated to me it feels genuine it feels rational at the time when I'm angry or get annoyed. But at the end of the day or a week later I don't give it much thought and we're back to being besties all over again. She sees it as me being a "bi***" I see it as BPD. I tell people close to me so they'd understand that I really don't mean to snap