Yeeeaaaarrrss ago when I was a teenager I had an episode where I was sure God was talking to me and telling me I had to go to my church, speak to the priest, and become a nun. I felt like that was the only way I was going to be saved and safe from.... something. That was a very disturbing episode and stayed with me for a long time. Now I see it for what it was... an episode. Something I went through that was part of my illness and it's not because I am a bad person.