<font color="blue">Hi everyone this is my first post so kinda going be crap, anyway I am really not coping that well my anger and paranoide has gotton so much worse. I'm feeling more and more suicidale every day my cuttin is getting worse I would say my whole life has gotton worse, I feel like the whole world hates me I feel that I'm not good enough for no one.

i just started treatment fro the Borderline the one on one is okay even thou I find it very hard to talk but its okay, but the group therapy is something I'm not coping with at all. I find it very hard to talk infront of people even the one to one sessions I find hard but the group is the worst, I think they are all okay well sort of but the teacher can see how much I hate to talk so he startsto ask question even thou he can see how anxious I am and how hard it is I feel that they are all judging me I feel the most stupid one there. Anyway the teacher asks me more and more question I just cant cope with it all I want to do is smake the guy in the face I can feel myslef geting angrey then all I think about is I want to cut to get the anger out.

Anway I will stop going on becuase this is just pathetic I'm such a blob and worthless useless person going. </font>