Hey,
I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone. I also have Borderline. I have be4en diagnosed for several years now and I just want to say it gets better. When I first was diagnosed I felt just like you do every single day. I h ated my life and myself. I was destructive and just very unhappy. I was bouncing in and out of the hospital evry four months for a while. Now I still have bad times and I was just hospitilized for 10 days but I feel soo much better than I did then. Living wth Borderline is not easy but it can and will get better. Once you learn how to live with it and cope with it. Hang in there
Oh Ps How you are feeling about talking in group therapy is perfectly normal. If you want to talk or anything you can either PM me or email me Ok? Hang in there