I has a really traumatic time 7/6 years ago when I spent a year abroad . That's when I became really aware of illness. I don't know how I'm still here. When I came back home from time abroad I went through a really difficult time. I remember reliving my experiences abroad. It was dark, disturbing, scarey and painful. I cried a great deal by myself.
I went to A&E for first time two years ago cos was in a really bad way. I felt like I'd given up completely. I was having really intense suicidal thoughts and feelings and behaving out of control, not myself. I received such poor treatment though by staff in A&E. I tried to few times to get them to take me seriously and help but didn't. I was told I don't have illness,medical problem, not serious/severe and forced away.