So far I haven't experienced hallucinations but my daughters and I have been severely traumatized by the episodes of this illness.
I've had a lot of suicide attempts, the last one being April 2011. Now, if I don't answer my phone or their texts, they think the worst. It's heartbreaking to know what I've done to them.

As for me, my episodes have left me very afraid of what's around the corner. having little episodes of stability is great but it always comes back, now with a vengance. I'm left afraid, hopeless, angry and discouraged.

I've done some outrageous things and that is my trauma