I know how you are feeling. This is a very lonely illness. The other night when I was having such a horrible night, I really needed somebody and what made me the saddest is that I had no one else to call. They're gone.

Having said that, you all have become my friends and got me through the other night and I so appreciate it.

People don't get it and how could they. They don't understand the intensity of our emotions and how they can change on a dime.
My friends also gave up on me and now I live my life secluded from everyone. Never taking the chance to meet people because in the end, I'm just going to get hurt.

It is true, people just aren't strong enough to walk a mile in our shoes. We have to live this life day after day and can't just walk away. But we're here. Standing tall, fighting the fight. We are a group of the most courageous people in the world and I truly believe that. Most people couldn't handle the life we've been given.

This illness has caused a lot of grief for me but at least I can pick out the positive about my personality. I'm strong and courageous and those have to be the most impressive qualities in anyone.

I'm not proud of what I've done but I'm proud of who I am inside.