I can relate. I haven't done anything in over 3 years now. Never had a job. No friends. Haven't really gone outside alone my entire life. I feel like something is missing in my head. I wonder why I am still alive. I even understand the no respect thing. It's not like I have earned any respect though so.

I'm not really worthy of respect.

Any thoughts I have aren't really valuable or up for discussion. I get shamed by my family. I am nothing but shame. People seem to shame me without having to speak. Or it's more like the lack of speak is how they shame me. Isolation as a form of shaming. I am rather useless at anything I try to do. People will tell me I am not but I just automatically assume everyone is lying to me. They all think to themselves. (This guy is real useless.) I tend to agree. I have no skills. People ask me. What do I do with my life.

I usually just say, "nothing."

Then they give me the usual expected comments where they show their arrogance.

I've seen it all before.