Mine have nothing to do with drugs. I think I'd feel better about them if it was. Just cuz then it's well I did it to myself. Mines do to having an abusive alcoholic pedophile father, a terminally I'll twin where I was used as the only source of blood and tissue for her, sexual assault,and myself being in an abusive relationship.

I feel so trapped under it all and have tried digging myself out these past few yrs. before recently I just numbed it out with pot and alcohol, but since then have cleaned up due to dissociation. Last time I smoked I had no idea what was real I was hearing things I couldn't possibly hear and I freaked out hardcore.