haha, wow this place is great, it's at least comforting knowing there are people who get it. Maybe I just need to calm my mind for a minute. But I seriously need to find some good help. It's hard moving forward when each day feels like a fight for survival.

I know the awful conditions of the past don't exist anymore, but my brain doesn't seem to care. That's one of the hardest things right now, jumping over that hurdle so I can move forward.