I have been brainwashed to compare myself to other people, and i am trying to break this cycle. - it is destroying me,

today, the notion intruded through my thoughts of 'nothingness' which was a blissful 5 seconds from the time of waking up, and all day I had imploding thoughts which ruined my day, and motivation to be quite honest.

Today I was able to concentrate for about an hour on the acoustic guitar, and understood how to read tabs and this made me feel better, but I was exhausted after one hour's worth of learning.



thank you for the opportunity to post this, it helps to vent!