Well TJ, that's a WOW (!!) from me!!!
I mean I know it isn't/isn't going to be as easy as just............and it's certainly not as simple as...........but REAL KUDOS for how far you've come/you're coming!!!
That had to be a really big step for you putting your DVD's in your locker, even just wanting temptation out of your way!!!
And wanting to get better/trying hard to follow the care plan. Shows real commitment there!!! While some of the things in there may be uncomfortable sometimes it can be hard to judge what we really need/what's best for us when in a "bad place" so it can be real good to have that structure/boundaries/safety net in place. Although having said that don't forget if things aren't working so well in it, what with your relationship with some of the staff.........then if you need adjustments in there to help you if you're struggling, just don't hang fire before discussing them, hey??
And good on you for the reduction in SI, and admitting to the lesser SI. You're obviously making real use of other coping strategies at times you would have SI'd before?? Maybe about building on these further, do you think?? Although it can take time, and a lot of it is going to need to come from you/at your own pace.
And GREAT decision on not discharging yourself!!! I'm sure SO MANY of us on here would LOVE to see you discharging yourself today and going home to a much better life, but it's the getting better you need to do first right??
And you know you are on your way.

Alison